I find conversations enjoyable but exhausting. It depends. One-to-one I can tend to take over. When there are two or more others, my head can explode. There is a rhythm to conversations that others seem able to follow but I can’t. I wait for a moment of complete silence to allow me in. But that moment never comes. Others seem able to anticipate when another’s sentence is about to end, and start to speak without a break in the exchange of words. I’m left forever waiting, with more and more points of issue and interest to raise. I have several thoughts for every person’s one, and try to remember them as they flash by, whilst letting the other person continue to speak, and continue to incite other thoughts in my poor overloaded brain. Never quite following the flow of conversation, I have learned not to talk over people and to let them finish. The problem is that others can anticipate that finish in a way I cannot, meaning that they beat me to the gun. And I am left attempting to retain all the points I want to make, in the hope that a break in the conversation may yet come. People say I do great in conversation. I am indeed incredibly verbal, one-to-one. What people never realise is that I usually have so much more to say.
